Happy belated Easter. Its the first full week of spring and today was not a disappointment..although I hear we will be seeing snow on Friday morning! Flowers are starting to appear through the leaves in the flower beds and everything...including my children..... seem to have sprouted overnight! I seem to have to look up to talk to my kids these days! Patrick is the tallest and this photo really shows it!

On the Fat Flush scene, I've been struggling for 3 weeks with food. I crave sugar. After the flu, I've been run down and eating things I shouldn't be. I don't have all the answers to get back that motivation that I held for 9 months. I have to find the path that leads back to that and quick! Anyone know the way?

Things could be worse

The past couple of weeks have been anxiety filled ones. I've not had a decent nights sleep since coming down with the flu and sleep deprivation does not help!

Add to my job and my tutoring NAEYC reaccreditation for work it equates to lots of extra work for us!!

I've also started stressing about the upcoming beginning of the trial, what the outcome could be, along with a ton of smaller things happening in my life.

As a preschool teacher, I hear so many bits of wisdom on a daily basis. Children have such a way of putting life into perspective!



I have a student who was diagnosed with diabetes last year while he was in my 3 day class. This year I have him in my 4 day class of 4 and 5 yr olds. He came to school this year with a pump that delivers his insulin. He still has to have finger pricks to test his blood and often has to stop what he is doing for this. He gets angry and his parents have allowed him the sentence "Diabetes Sucks!"

His mom relayed a story to me yesterday not knowing I was feeling blue. Seems her little guy had again gotten upset when asked to wash his hands so she could check his blood sugar level. He stomped to the bathroom yelling "Diabetes Sucks!" She'd had a small conversation saying there were worse things in life and the finger stick would be over and he'd be back to playing soon. He came out from washing his hands and said he knew what could be worse.
Now remember, this is a 5 yr old little boy......



"I could have cancer, that would be a worst OR I could have REALLY bad diarrhea! Now that would be really worse!"



I have played this conversation over and over in my head and even with all my stresses and worries, my aloneness in the world, the upcoming trial that is sure to stir up so many sad memories...things could be worse... I could have really bad diarrhea.... little guy is right.. that is way worse!

under the weather

Yep, good ole influenza has come for a visit! I contracted the dreaded flu... I've gone on line to the CDC website and can put a check next to all the symptoms. I have not been this sick in a long time. I think today I am finally seeing the other end. It started Thursday with a slight headache and chills but no fever so I brought my germy self off to a full inservice workshop and spread the joy around I'm sure! On Friday morning I felt horrible and made it til 10:30am teaching...thus spreading those germs to my students and other staff...oh boy! Got home and my fever quickly rose to 101....it has been as high as 104 and that is just miserable!

My daughter has been a great little nurse. She made me protein smoothies, brought me water and kept her distance! She wiped down the phone and the clicker when I was through with them and would line the area where I sat with blankets to create a 'safe zone'. She is too funny!

This morning I woke up and laughter erupted as I walked into the kitchen to give my children lunch money (I've not been able to get to the grocery store). You see, last night I ran a fever of 103 and took 1 ibuprofin like the bottle said...it did squat. My throat was burning, I was shaking head to toe and so I went for the Tylenol sore throat and fever liquid med. I woke sometime in the middle of the night dripping with sweat...guess that took the fever down for me! Needless to say though as cold as I was I had no energy to get myself up and change me and the sheets so I went back to sleep. This was the result....

I think I got the whoo ville resident look a like contest down pat, don't you!?!

I'm grateful to the mom of one of my tutoring students. She asked if we need anything and picked up bread and eggs for me. She also left off a container of chicken veggie soup Yum!! God sure puts good people in my path!

Later in my utter boredom I realized my domain for the past 5 days has been the couch...I've actually had control of it, the phone AND the clicker!! The kids have been pretty gracious (if not frightened of the germs I'm harboring!) So...with that thought, I devised my own currency... what do you think?

Stay well out there!
Lisa

Thought for today

"If there be a faith that can move mountains, it is faith in one's own power." -

Marie Von Ebner-Eschenbach

Believe

Botanists say that trees need the powerful March winds to flex their trunks and main branches, so the sap is drawn up to nourish the budding leaves. Perhaps we need the gales of life in the same way, though we dislike enduring them.- Jane Truax

Sorry to have landed back on dry land and then to have dissappeared. Life has been about getting reacclimated to the cold, to the routine of caring for my children and to the life of teacher and reading tutor!

Life has also brought about a major event that will be taking place within the next few months. I retrieved the mail only to find a letter from our lawyer's office. I was leery about opening something from them. I figured any good news would come in the form of a phone call. I held the letter in my hands fearing it would say we were done and that Tom's malpractice suit was finished without even getting started. I brought the letter into the house and silently said a quick little prayer and then opened the letter. As I read it, I began shaking from head to toe and the tears took over as I realized the letter was good news. We have a trial date! 6 yrs of waiting to go to trial and it is finally here.

Now, I sit with this information and wonder about the events that have taken place this year. Maybe my winning the cruise was somehow God's way of giving me a way to regroup and re-energize for the emotional roller coaster ride that is to come starting this May. The 'gales of life' blew hard 6 yrs ago and I have survived 6 yys of those life winds trying to knock me down. Now they will blow again and bring back those memories with the trial.

I have faith that this trial will bring the best possible outcome for the children and I. How could I not with having my own personal angel in the wings?