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Thoughts for today June 23rd, 2010


Outside my window...The sun has set and the tree frogs and crickets are singing. These are the singers of summer nights, the song that lulls me to sleep at night.

I am thinking... about today... only 20 years ago today. Today is what would have been my 20th wedding anniversary. I remember a day filled with hopes and dreams of a future I would share with my best friend. I recall it being a very humid day and having to go off in the morning to have my nails and hair done and my mother asking me to pick up the bags of rolls for the after party! haha of all things!  The rain was off and on that day and I was little sad because of it. I remember getting home and everyone so busy with themselves that I dressed and readied myself. The little details that stayed with me that morning...The flower delivery showed up at the house with the wrong flowers and my brother had to run to fetch the correct ones! My niece was my flower girl and the basket of her flowers was so full of water she couldn't lift it, No one could find my Dad's boutonnière and he had on my going away flowers! haha, later we learned my cousin thought it was an extra and pinned it on her fiance :)  At the church, my father told me I could back out if I wanted ummm nope thats ok dad! And then it was time. My best friend cried as he said his vows to me...awwww! and such a kiss he gave me! I was so happy!! and as I said I do, there was a clap of thunder!!! wow! We made it through the reception and then it poured! People kept saying "its a sign of fertility" (yes 10 months later Patrick was born!). We danced, we ate, we drank, we danced and then it was over and we went off to our Mexican Honeymoon... that is a story for another day!

I am thankful for...The eleven and a half years I had to spend with my husband, my best friend. I am forever grateful he came into my life and I wouldn't change a minute of it.

I am wearing... a collared shirt and shorts today..nothing fancy.

I am creating... nothing much at the moment... I'd like to create a clean house but the odds with 3 teens home for summer break are against me!

I am going...To Denmark with my sisters on Monday and am excited about the trip!

I am hearing... The airconditioner and some fight show on TV that Sam is watching.

One of my favorite things... A good book and a good cup of tea to snuggle down with, right now I am reading "Outside Boy" a story about a Tinker family from Ireland.

A few plans for the rest of the week: packing, a list of house rules, notes for mother in law who will stay with Sam and grocery shopping.

Here is picture for thought I am sharing.. see the top as I can't get the picture to move... These are our wedding bands. I wore them around my neck after Tom died and the filigree on Tom's ring broke and was repaired 3 times.. the first being in the first month after he died. I was holding them not to long ago thinking how the promise of a lifetime together was broken and how the rings seem to symbolize that more than the union of love we shared. Might be time to turn them into something else that is whole.

While the sun was out a little this week, I got busy getting bird feeders filled. Once the bait was set, I grabbed my camera and waited. 

The branch sat empty for awhile and when I bird chanced to have a snack, it quickly left when it detected any motion from me. 

Finally a brave female bird checked out the area.  I do believe she was assessing my threat to her well being here.  And decided I was no threat at all.

She spent a lot of time nibbling on the peanut butter brick.

She sure was one brave..or very hugry bird. I would think the hungrier they are the less they care who is standing nearby.  I finally moved the wrong way and she took off ending my photo journaling of her meal.
 

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Thoughts for today June 8th, 2010


Outside my window... I'm watching the rain fall in big fat droplets, collecting in puddles on the driveway and forming streams that course downward toward the street.  The wind that kicked up is pushing the large grey rain clouds and the blue skies are beginning to peak out again as the rain recedes.  Half my front yard is bathed in shadow and half in sunshine...

I am thinking... about the sun and hoping it will stay and dry out the ground as I am supposed to play golf in a few hours. 

I am thankful for... my little dog Chloe who follows me from room to room and settles down keeping me company where ever I stop. 


From the kitchen... I hear Patrick making himself some lunch. I'm sure when I go in later I'll find the dishes, condiments and open packages that will need putting away. One would think he could remember do clean up after himself.... college doesn't teach these things?

I am wearing... shorts and a T-shirt and finding it to chilly for the upper 60 degree weather we are having, only I'm to stubborn to put on something warm.... it is summer ya know!

I am creating... an alter... also can be looked at as space. Space to hold and honor my life where it is right now. Its not the easiest of tasks. After reading about alter making, I thought I'd try it. 

I am going... golfing for the first time in the ladies league tonight. I'm pretty excited about it as I hope to make new golfing friends :)

I am hearing... rain drops dripping off the leaves onto the porch... the rain has just about stopped.

One of my favorite things... Lemon sugar powdered cookies... my great Aunt Lunda and my Grandma used to feed them to me... to this day I have yet to find them in my grocery store... but I keep looking!

A few plans for the rest of the week: I need to begin preparations for my trip in 3 wks. time to start making lists!

Here is picture for thought I am sharing..

The rain is drying up off the porch after soaking the yard. I found this reflective puddle very appropriate to go with my reflections today. 

Simplicity in writing

A friend of mine keeps a blog and I noticed this very neat entry that was set in the simplicity of answering questions. It from the simple woman's day journal.  Today I thought I'd give it a try and seeing that I haven't devoted any time to writing..lets see what it may jog out of my cobwebbed brain.

Outside my window… I'm seeing the calm before the storm...literally. The skies are getting darker, humidity level is about 100% and the temperature is around 72 degrees... all the makings of a thunder storm. The news weather caster on the television has said it will come in with 75 mile an hour gusts so it will be time to tie down the deck furniture. 

I am thankful for… the quiet of the morning to sit and think my thoughts and daydream some time away before the work of the day begins. 

I am wearing… new pajamas :) that I bought yesterday on a shopping spree with my best friend. 

I am remembering… that I have to work more on my resume and getting more applications out into the mail.

A few plans for the week… tutoring, working on the summer work schedule, sending out resumes and hoping for interviews, driving kids here and there, getting ready for a trip at the end of the month.

I am currently reading… The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo...haven't made a dent in it yet ... we'll see how it is.

I am hoping… that today will be a good day.

On my mind… Tom...always Tom.

Hearing…. the fan.. birds and the weatherman talking about a 'little nor' easter coming Wed into Thurs...hmmm.

I am praying that……the higher good for my family in my jobless situation.

From the kitchen… kids have taken over the table and counter with their things...need to move those out... and need to get some grocery shopping done..I'd send them but wouldn't trust a car load of eggo and chips to come back.

Around the house…Let's not really go into the piles of folded laundry that need putting away or the wires and video game mess in the living room... at least I got the dishes and cups I was left into the dishwasher!

One of my favorite things…this won't shock anyone that knows me... my camera.

From my photo journal.........

The strawberries are ripening around here. I used to keep them in the side garden but the chipmunks always beat me to them. This year I chose to dig them up and put them into hanging pots on the deck close to the house. My thought process was that no animals would come near the house with people and dogs in and out... I was wrong. So far two of the ripened berries had big bites taken out of them... looks like I'm going to have to buy them at the farm stand again this year.