
SO, I'd spent the past few weeks dwelling on my upcoming anniversary, remembering our beautiful wedding, our vows and promises to love one another.

I loved him for richer or for poorer.... we stretched our pennies and worked hard trying to make a house that was falling down around our ears a 'home'.
I loved him in sickness and in health.... well...he kept up this part more so with all the sickness that I seemed to attract. Coming home from our honeymoon to Mexico harboring a 'guest' the doctors termed 'typhoid' and Tom said, "I promised to love you in sickness and in health, but did we have to test it so soon?" and then again a year later and almost losing my life during the birth of P. Tom just gave me 'the look' and jokingly told me to stop testing him!
But the one I don't think I've kept well is "until death do us part" I can't just stop loving him because he died.... I continue to love him even though death darkened our doorway. And while looking back on photos can bring tears of sadness, they also bring tears of joy in remembering what a beautiful man I married and was lucky enough to have love me.
I do have a little confession to make though. I fretted and worried up until last week and then the day came and went without notice. It wasn't until last night during an anxiety filled dream where I was late for my wedding and running down the streets of my home on Cape Cod to the church, that I remembered. Could it be that I forgot trying to 'protect' myself from my own emotions... or have I come to a place of more healing where I can put it aside and hold it later? I remain curious about this.
1 comment:
I remember the story of the yellow roses.
I think the "until death do us part" means more that you will love him until death and continue to love and honor his memory now that he is no longer with you. You can't love him in the same way as you could when he was earthbound but you will never stop remembering the love you shared. He will be in your heart for always.
(((HUGS))) to you.
Remembering Tom and all the good times.
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